FOR GREGORY

Periodically I will add posts here if the sources provide additioanl informaiton on how to think about and deal with Dementia/ Alzheimer's Disease.

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SCROLL DOWN FOR TEXT and BIBLIOGRAPHY from DAI WEBINAR 2/22-23/2017. You can also find this information on my website: www.horvich.com


Even though this blog is now dormant (see info below) there are many useful, insightful posts. Scroll back from the end or forward from the beginning. My guess is that you could spend a lot of time here and maybe learn or experience a thing or two about living with and loving someone with Dementia/Alzheimer's or maybe come away with the feeling that "you are not alone" in YOUR work with the same!


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THIS WAS THE FINAL POST TO THIS SITE BEFORE IT WENT DORMANT.


Happy New Year 2016. With a new year comes new beginnings and sometimes endings. If I am personally progressing and if I am doing a good job in my grieving Gregory's death; if I have been able to learn my lessons in living and loving someone diagnosed with Dementia/ Alzheimer's; if I am to get on with my life ... I need to bring this Alzheimer's blog to an end since my writing has been dealing less with Dementia/ Alzheimer's and more with life after Dementia/ Alzheimer's.


Of course, I will always continue to work for and support fair treatment on behalf of people with Dementia/ Alzheimer's and may post here from time to time. Also, there are many wonderful posts here through which you may browse.


With this change, I will continue and reinvigorate my "michael a. horvich writes" blog which deals with grieving Gregory's death, life lessons, personal experiences, observations, memoirs, dreams, and humor in essay and poetry, as well as an attempt now and then at sharing a piece of fiction.


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Saturday, June 28, 2014

Here Come Those Emotions Again

I went to visit Gregory today. He was asleep and I couldn't wake him up. Manny reported that Gregory had slept most of the afternoon and Tomika reported that he slept most of the day.

I asked the nurse to look at him which she did right away. His blood pressure, pulse, heart rate, oxygen count were all normal as was his breathing. So nothing looked wrong, and the excuse was "Maybe he didn't sleep well last night."

I left him to sleep and returned home, not terribly upset but not completely calm either. Why was he so far away? Why would he not wake up? Was he keeping his eyes closed on purpose? Was he being stubborn? Was he becoming comatose? I was not terribly upset but not completely calm either.

While I was washing my dinner dishes the emotions crept in and I got frightened. Not for Gregory but for myself. I realized that even in his current condition, he is such an important part of my life. He is where I go almost every day to visit. I still shop for him, find clothes for him, organize his room for him. I will miss him so much when he dies (assuming he goes before me.) 

Then I suddenly felt so alone. Even in his current condition he is with me and I will miss him so much when he dies. Who will I take care of? I am afraid for myself at  how alone I will feel when he is gone.

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