Total Eclipse of the Heart

Every now and then I find a song that I add to “Michael’s Down” playlist on my iTunes. When I get depressed or down enough to need a really good cry, I turn up the speakers and play the tunes on my playlist. Usually feel better after a good cry. If G is at home, I will go out for a walk, ear buds plugged in and iPhone in pocket. If it gets bad enough, I blast the speakers while he is at home and he gives me the space I need to grieve. Afterwards we hug and “make up.” I try not to do the latter too often because it feels like my being down is punishing him. But he knows I get down and it is better to admit it out loud, very loud, than try to cover my feelings with him knowing anyway. Here are the lyrics from one of the songs on my list. I'll share others in future blogs.

Total Eclipse of the Heart

Bonnie Tyler

(Turn around) 

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely

And you're never coming 'round

(Turn around) 

Every now and then I get a little bit tired

Of listening to the sound of my tears

(Turn around) 

Every now and then I get a little bit nervous

That the best of all the years have gone by

(Turn around) 

Every now and then I get a little bit terrified

And then I see the look in your eyes

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

(Turn around)

Every now and then I get a little bit

Restless and I dream of something wild

(Turn around)

Every now and then I get a little bit helpless

and I'm lying like a child in your arms

(Turn around)

Every now and then I get a little bit angry

And I know I have to get out and cry

(Turn around) 

Every now and then I get a little bit terrified

And then I see the look in your eyes

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight

And I need you more than ever

And if you only hold me tight

We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right

'Cause we'll never be wrong

Together we can take it to the end of the line

Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

(All of the time)

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark

We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks

I really need you tonight

Forever's gonna start tonight

(Forever's gonna start tonight)

Once upon a time I was falling in love

Now I'm only falling apart

There's nothing I can do

A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life

But now there's only love in the dark

Nothing I can say

A total eclipse of the heart

(Turn around bright eyes

Turn around bright eyes)

(Turn around)

Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy

You always wanted to be

(Turn around)

But every now and then I know you'll always be the only boy

Who wanted me the way that I am

(Turn around)

Every now and then I know there's no one in the universe

As magical and wondrous as you

(Turn around)

Every now and then I know there's nothing any better

There's nothing that I just wouldn't do

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

(Turn around bright eyes)

Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight

(And I need you)

And I need you more than ever

And if you only hold me tight

(If you'll only)

Well be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right

(And we'll never)

'Cause we'll never be wrong 

Together we can take it to the end of the line

Love is like a shadow on me all of the time

(All of the time)

I don't know what to do, I'm always in the dark

We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks

I really need you tonight

Forever's gonna start tonight

(Forever's gonna start tonight)

Once upon a time I was falling in love

But now I'm only falling apart

Nothing I can do

A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life

But now there's only love in the dark

Nothing I can say

A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart

(Turn around bright eyes

Turn around bright eyes

Turn around).