Today G and I had another one of our talks. He may or may not remember the talk but it helps me to process and it feels like we are sharing the dilemma of Alzheimer's. He is living it and I am feeling the repercussions of protecting him while dealing with my emotions as I watch his decline.
Today's talk centered around a number of events that took place this weekend. He was having trouble with doing something. I had to step in to help and this made him a little angry and short with me.
In a previous BLOG we came to the conclusion that: "...my helping him has become a choice between hurting his feeling less or hurting his feelings more. "
This time we came came to the conclusion that sometimes it seems like our choice is his being frustrated when he cannot do something or his frustration when I have step in to help. Either way ... FRUSTRATION.
Luckily (others would say Thank God) the frustration and anger is short lived and we just get on with living our life the best we can. He will usually end with, "I love you very much." I will reply, "That was never in question! I love you too."
I believe that the love you share is what is keeping you both going. How wonderful that you share something so special.
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